August 10

The word "stifling," to me, connotes "suffocating," and both of these adjectives are relevant in describing the heat that was today. I took this picture before I went to work in the morning, and although the sun didn't reach its peak until hours later, the heat was already saturating the air in the form of vaporous rays of light. The heat was not abstract but a concrete presence: able to be not only felt but seen. Farmland made me so tired. It wasn't an abnormally bad day though because I talked to a lot of people, saw a chick hatch, told an interested couple every fact I know about Poitou Donkeys, and sprayed a baby alpaca with a hose to cool him down. After work it took me a while to feel completely like I had beaten the threat of heatstroke. 

Lately I've been feeling the weight of my trivial (but maybe not so much) burdens increase every day. Today was the first time in a long while I haven't felt stifled by worries and anxious anticipation, which was ironic because I was so stifled by the temperature. I sweated off my confusion and my little pieces of sadness, sprinkled around and shared. Today I feel happy and new and not afraid. Sorry I'm being so vague, but this is just a photo blog anyways. I have three days off from work, and I will spend them by being not-at-Farmland. What a great feeling.

Today I gave a guitar performance and the bad news is I still can't play guitar. Oh well. It's so hot, that's the problem.

The song of the day is "Don't Be Scared" by Andrew Bird.