June 7

I guess it's appropriate seeing as today was the first day of my official post-highschool life, but I felt summer everywhere I went today. First I woke up at Kathryn's house. Her mom made us breakfast and reminded me of the last time I slept over there. I was in second grade and it was my first all-nighter. Saori Baba was there. Then I walked the short journey back to my house, half with Jeff and half without. I didn't want to go home. The above picture is from my sister's dance show. It made me weepy to see Emily dance. She gets better every time I see her. I think what makes her such an amazing dancer is that you can see on her face all kinds of pain: physical and emotional, but she makes it beautiful. 

Tonight we went to the Dawson Rec playground because, contrary to popular belief, playgrounds are always fun always. I laughed harder tonight than I have in a long time. That's how I knew that we broke through our temporarily boring streak. We weren't having any adventures. We went to Lanny's house and Lanny put blankets on the lawn for us to lay on and under and look up at the stars that weren't actually visible at all, but it didn't matter. Kelsey just mentioned this in her blog, but I will say it again. I love my friends. And now more than ever we are showing our love and affection, to a near-ridiculous extent. This is because we feel an ominous time-stamp on all our relationships. Liz and I discussed in the car, while listening to "To Be Alone with You" bye Sufjan Stevens (songoftheday) how much we need to value honest and real relationships because we once we move into college and meet completely new people, we are going to have to start honing small-talk and hold back our true selves for a while. It is depressing to think about. I want to savor this summer as much as I can because I know I will miss it so much when it's over.