June 18

Today was divided into two sections. During the second section, I hung out with various friends, and talked to them, you know, that stuff, so it was okay. But for the entire morning and early afternoon, I felt pathetic, lonely, bored, sick, and disgusted in myself. I couldn't walk though, so that was pretty much the reason for my melancholy. Whenever someone asked me today why I was limping, I would try to owe it up to "acid burn," but not once did that cut it as a legitimate reason, in anyone's eyes. I would have loved it to be accepted. Anyways I'm better now. But you know what I did today? I bought a donut, at the drive-thru, and ate it. Right there in the car. I felt like the epitome of three to four deadly sins.

Sometimes I wish days were twice as long as they are. This way, I could give my family as much of me as I give my friends. I'm really glad I'm going to California with them. Today I found "New Sensations" by Lou Reed on tape. I've been looking for this for about a year now. Listening to it reminded me of traveling around upstate New York with my dad, an excursion I will always remember fondly.

Maybe it's the rain, or maybe the donut, but I'm feeling a little too stationary these days. I need more art in my life, and more velocity.

She looks like the real thing, she tastes like the real thing, my fake plastic love

1 comment:

#1 Fan said...

Acid burn doesn't begin to describe the melt away. Hope you're feeling better.