March 29

I'm feeling in limbo right now, and I don't like it. Today I went to installment 2 of Emily's dance show. I'm still feeling very creative but not knowing what to do with it. Usually rain is good but it just made me sad today. The song of the day is "Different Names for the Same Thing" by Death Cab for Cutie. I'm excited for spring to come but I keep feeling bored with the season's change and bored with my knowing exactly what to expect. Do you know what I mean? I'm not that excited to wear sandals and go swimming because I remember feeling exactly this way last year. I think I just figured out why my grandmother never goes swimming. I've always thought it would be boring to sit by the edge of the pool and watch everyone else in the water like she does, but I guess by the time you've been excited to swim for the first time since the summer for the seventieth year in a row, swimming loses its appeal. I hope all my disillusionment disappears really soon. Most preferably in the next month. What are the chances of that happening?